A Touch of Red

Remember when I said that every room needs a touch of red? Well, I had large jars with silver lids on them and when I organized the new book shelf in the kitchen, I put them on it and they blended in with the other items on the shelf so I took them off, painted the red and now they POP!

I think that you can overdo the red though. I have a wooden box that holds microwave popcorn that had a terrible design on it so I painted it red as well and will be writing POPCORN on it in black. If I can find a smaller tray I will likely paint it red as well (or maybe black?) but anything more and I think that we are looking at overkill.

Life, In Bullets

• I am cranky today
• But I am not being a total bitch
• We finally got around to moving the bookshelves, cabinet and boxes from my parents house to here.
• It's all Geeky's stuff so now he has to go through it all.
• If he doesn't do it today I will seriously consider beating him.
• We pulled the carpet up in the living room and there is awesome hardwood underneath it.
• Squee!
• Geek has a photo album of his wedding day. I want him to get rid. He says that it is "not time"
  
• That really pissed me off. I am trying to understand but the fact is that I don't. It makes me feel like he is hanging on to his ex wife.
  
• I arranged the new bookcase in my kitchen and put stuff on it - kitchen things and not so kitchen things.
• It made me happy.
• I spilled some bleach on my quilt and got all mad.
• I wanted to blame someone else but I am the only one that does the damn laundry.
• Puppy bunny hates the hardwood.
• I think that's funny because he slides all over it.
• I want to paint something RED.
• I just don't know what, exactly.
• Armed with a can of spray paint, I can be a scary person.

Summer!

Yesterday was the last day of school and, of course we celebrated with a PARTY!

We had friends over: Frankie and Hollywood as well as my momma and daddy. Ate burgers, salads and had drinks and dessert.

Of course no party is complete without...

party lights

drinks

individual ice buckets

juice for the kids

little balloons...
(the white ones had glow sticks in them so they lit up in the dark!)

and big ones

the obligatory picture of everyone enjoying the food that you catch unexpectedly so that they look stupid

an ice cream sundae buffet

with cherries on top

fellers that don't want their picture taken

bubbles

butts that get stuck in windows

mommies who get a li'l bit tipsy and start wearing everyone's glasses

sparklers...

and laughter. Lots and lots of laughter.
HAPPY SUMMER!

contemplating loss

Weight loss, that is. I don't know if I have shared this here yet and I am too lazy to go back through the archives and look but I have lost at least 30 lbs. I have no idea if that is an accurate number I just know that the scale was heading over 250 the last time I weighed myself at my parents house (I didn't own a scale at the time I am not crazy) and I weighed myself again after I went off my one medication that was slowing my metabolism to a stand still and noticed that I was losing weight and the needle rested at 245. Then it crept down further and I said to myself: self we need to get a scale and so I did.

I am officially 220 lbs and continuing to drop. I might be a little less than that but I haven't done my weigh in for the week yet. Of course that's nekkid and first thing in the morning... anything to ensure that my spirits remain up and I have drive to continue losing ;)

There are benefits to losing weight as we all know but there are also drawbacks as well - like the fact that none of my pants fit properly anymore or that the pretty new dress I bought a month ago but couldn't wear because Ontario has stupid weather is too big now and I haven't even worn in. My boobs are losing weight which could be a bonus but the fact that my rib cage appears to be stuck somewhere between a 36 and 38 band size, some bras I own fit and others don't. I wouldn't mind being a C vs. a D cup but I love my boobies now that I have them yanno?

My stomach is shrinking and I am happy about that. So are my legs which is awesome but they have this weird bumpy texture to them which is not quite cellulite and the skin is hanging a little funny but I am confident that it will tighten up since my stomach was doing the same thing and it is fine now. My birds wings are still flapping around but they are shrinking and it's a damn good thing otherwise we would be discussing a savings account to get the damn things removed.

I don't have a particular weight in mind at the moment but I do know that I want to be able to shop in almost any store and be able to fit into the clothing. I am not concerned about being skinny at all - I want to keep some curves (and my girls of course) but oh, to be able to walk into stores with a selection of clothing instead of the weird crap that you find in the plus sizes.

Speaking of weird crap in plus sizes, what is with the shirts that are better suited to my grandma or the elastic waist band pants? Why are they SO expensive in comparison to regular sizes and why, for the love of God do they think that just because you are a bigger lady that your arms suddenly grew too? Shorten up the sleeves there people it's insanity. And why do a lot of the shirts make you wonder whether or not these are a pajama top or a regular shirt? I want everything else all the anorexic chicks are wearing but in my size. It's not rocket science folks. Oh, and while they are at it, some sexy lingerie would be fabulous too and for reasonable prices. I want to jiggle my girlie bits with my sweetheart wearing something hawt and I shouldn't have to travel a million miles, pay a small fortune or purchase it sight unseen over the internet to do that.

I know that yes, I am losing weight but damn, I am not necessarily going to be a tiny woman again nor do I really want to be (that and Geeky would be so very sad) and I want to look nice and not like an almost 40 year old frump mmm'k?

ABC's of Me

A - Age: 37 and getting younger every day!

B - Bed size: Queen

C - Chore you hate: Putting away the laundry

D - Dogs names: Toby, Zoe, Micker, Justice and currently Maggie

E - Essential start your day item: I don't have one. Not even coffee.

F - Favorite colors: Pink although I also adore sunny yellow, sage, red, apple green, bright blue, navy, and violet

G - Gold or Silver: Silver

H - Height: 5 ft 5 in

I - Instruments you play: Flute. Played for many years and was really quite good at it.

J - Job title: mom, sweetheart, homemaker and Grand Empress of the Universe

K - Kids: 2 girls :)

L - Living arrangements: renting a small 3 bedroom house

M - Mom's name: Tjalinda

N - Nicknames: Bear

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: went to Dominican Republic and came home with a virus. Went from 110lbs to less than 90 in about 10 hours. Soooo sick.

P - Pet Peeves: carpeting, Puppy bunny trying to get it on with my leg, people crowding my space and rudeness.

Q - Quote: "Breaking up with your boyfriend and trying to remain friends is like having your dog die and you mom saying that you can keep it"

R - Right or left handed: Right

S - Siblings: none. My dad says that when I was born they broke the mold. Mind you, he also says that when I was little they took me out and beat me with the ugly stick. *shrug*

T - Time you wake up: Anywhere from 4:30 to 7:30 depending on the day and how long my brain shuts up for

U - Underwear: whatever matches my bra. I decided a long time ago that if that cute little bra didn't have matching unders then I wasn't going to buy it. It has saved me from MANY purchases ;)

V - Vegetable you dislike: Sweet potatoes. I think. Haven't had them in years so you never know.

W - What makes you run late: Someone else taking too long. I am almost always on time.

X -X-rays you've had: teeth, knee, hip, ankle, hands

Y - Yummy food you make: gah. Cooking. Bleh.

Z - Zoo animal: Giraffe

Friendship

"When we are grown, we'll smile and say we had no cares in childhoods day,
but we'll be wrong. Twill not be true. I'd this much care... I cared for you."

Update #2

Lee is eating better the last few days but her weight remains low. She isn't feeling nearly as poorly as she was - I am thinking that perhaps because she is finishing off her exams she feels a little less stressed but I don't know. We got the results back from the doctors office and they are all fine so I suppose that we are leaning more toward the idea that there is an emotional link to all of her physical issues but we will see.

Thanks again for all the support I will keep you posted if there is anything more to add.

Update

Lee seems a little better the last day or so. We are still waiting on the doctors office to give us the test results - I will have to call again tomorrow morning since they are closed in the afternoon on Wednesdays. She has been eating - not as well as normal but better than before although she still feels full quite quickly. The biggest thing is that she is sleeping a lot. A nap daily and then a full nights sleep. She doesn't appear to be as depressed either which is great. Her need for sleep seems to be beyond a depression issue.

Thank you for all of the support... I will continue to update you.

A few quick responses to comments left:

Lara: she has an under active thyroid that is monitored on a regular basis. Part of the testing is for her thyroid that has, up until now not required medication. Perhaps that has changed.

Manic Mother: thank you for your support. With all that you are going through it is amazing that you are still finding the time and strength to read here. As always, you, Ezra and your family are in my prayers.

Ether Bunny: Yes, this has a LOT to do with Mr. X. If you haven't already, please read my comment on my previous post.

Susan: That is our biggest concern - diabetes. I am hoping that her blood sugars and kidney/liver levels come back alright.

Going a little too far...

Holy crap Meme were you a fat kid? Maybe an obese teenager?

Oooh! Maybe you were a fat ass adult woman who lost a ton of weight and now you have to torment everyone who isn't on your healthy eating bandwagon. Personally, I feel really sorry for your children because wow, you must be pretty embarrassing.

Come closer, Meme. A little closer. I want to whisper something in your ear...

You're a dipshit lady. Seriously. Get some psychological assistance immediately before the fat lady inside of you escapes.

Mom Threatens School for Serving Her Child a Cupcake

Oooh!

Can I have this if I am really, really good?

I promise that I will take really good care of it and I will share with the other kids and play nicely and everything!

Pinky promise with sugar on top, cross my heart and hope to die - stick a needle in my eye if I lie.

If I don't, you can ground me for LIFE and take away all my toys (except maybe that pink one it's my favorite) and never ever love me ever again.